its been a relitivly good week so far don my 2 math exams and i think i did pritty wel tbh eny way nothins realy happend this week thank fuck but i bet somert will XD

k sooo it been a long time since iv been on gamernook cos it wouldent let me on >:( "incorect password" but eny ways the story 4 the last months basicly iv fell out wid my best mate (mother fkin back stabin camel rapin twat face shit muncher) erm it was my bday i got some of my mates 2 come round (paul hannah kallen ,dan couldent make it XD) hannah was flirtin with paul aaaall night which dident bother me it was y she was doin it that did pauls been goin on about the love/s of his life which also i don mind cos im happy 2 hlp him ^^ but he seams 2 have quite a couple of problems with them :/ and despite how shit this years been .... WHO GIVES A SHT XD if theres 1 thing iv realised latey it that lifes sht and u cant do enything about that so the best u can do is get on with it cos at the end of the day its not about how crap it gets its about how much u make of it.

now i know the title sounds dodjy but shut up not like that XD the freekin snow is 6 inch thick holey shit man i aint seen snow like this since well ever this shit is ace dude seriously how could eny one in this weather b unhappy unless they need to get 2 work :P

holey crap new starwars family guy XD  hehehehehe sweat this is gona b freakin awsome :P

this could be the start of a great new year for one i got hannah 2 stop over on newyears eve and she said she had the best newyear of her life (nothing happend so get that out ur dirty mind XD) im not pissed at ryan enymore cos i know hes got my back and i cinda accept the fact hannah like him so i told him if u wana get seeing her do it dont let me stand in your way i mean if it will make her happy i ges im not botherd about it pauls ok with hannah now and so am i cos we all made friends XD but for how long i dont know o.m and im getting better at gta infact iv hade quite a couple of ppl shouting at me cos they think im hacking or somert XD witch im not so get over the fact im a bit better then u :P and im just in a happy mood so i thought id get it wrote down on hear so i dont forget about it XD later.

wow!!! loads of snow today then again there has been loads of snow all week puts u in a good mood tho ^^

u know one of these days im going to turn round to every one and say u know wat most of u are actualy ass holes (mostly ppl i thought wer ok :S ) and u know y cos thats going to b the day i become completely honest thats going to b the day i turn to hannah and say hannah i love u i always have and if u dont care ok but know this i'll still love u and i'll always b there for u ^^

turns out my best mate is a complete utter mother fking backstabing cunt HA!!! and the way i found out was even mother fking beter u know y cos the girl i love is generaly the one who told me and she was the main reason it happend so that makes it even fking worse SHIT!!!!! is there eny other way my life could go wrong seriously do eny thing eny thing u want i bet it couldent get eny worse im in love with somone who dosent even like me -so i feel like shit all the time- i feel like i have no mates watsoever or enyone to fall back on -mostly because there eaver liers backstabbers pricks or just complete utter fking assholes- im failing most of my school work because i cant concentrate -mostly because im wondering hmm wat els could go wrong- probably every single thing that means eny thing to me is being taken away one by one but u know what y should i care no one els seems to care y dont i just go with the trend y dont i just curl up into a ball and let my entire life waste away just let it fade away cos i dought enyone would care y dont i just do that hmm i'll tell u y cos some times u have to put on a brave face some times u have to say yhea every things fine i swer just to protect those u care about those u love but mostly its to protect ur self from hurting the ones u love.........................

most people want to do the right thing but somtimes find it to hard or to complicated well thats my situation mostly because i feel like if i curled up into a little ball and hid away for lets say about a month for example no one would notice ....... no one would b like hay wheres adam. it feels like theyed just say wasent there a guy we knew who use to hang around hear / i duno probably not ..... :(

it feels like no one cares no one thinks hang on surely thats gona hurt his feelings surely that guy is thinking right now WOW what a complete utter piece of shit i am i mean come on its not as if eny one likes me its not as if eny one is expecting me to do the right thing well maby i will maby i should do the right thing even if its the hardest thing of all to do even if it might involve hurting somone you care about ................. somone you love. maby i should let her go if she thinks she'd be happy with him and turns out she is ................ im happy because i would never do eny thing to hurt her i would do enything it takes to make her happy and if letting her go is what it takes then i'll ges i'll have to do it ............. for her .... for me

y did it have to b me y was i the one who fell or her y couldent it of been some one she actualy liked some one who could cope with it better some one who knew wat to say who knew how to make her feel like the only person in the world insted of thinking "im gona do it im gona tell her how i feel right now" then when they reach her house standing in the rain for about 3 hours thinking i cant do it she dosent like me the way i like her she likes me as a friend .... no get a hold of ur self just do it go tell her how u feel its all gona work its self out ..... no NO it wont she just gona say she dosent like me and tred all over me like a worthless piece of crap ........ no shes not like that u know she isent thats y u fell in love with her because shes not like every body els shes smart shes beautiful she may not know it but shes the only person i think about eny more and when shes unhappy i'll b there when she needs a sholder to cry on i'll be there what ever it is i'll b there for her throu thick and thin just like i always have been just like i always will be ........ yhea but if she rejects you then its just going to b quite auquard isent it talking to the guy who pourd his heart out to u i meen uv talked to her u know how she chuckels when she said one of her exes came round and said he loves her he wants her back he needs her but u both know thats just a lie they just cant stand being alone shes just gona think ur some one like that some one who needs to have some one who cant b alone ...... iv been alone most of my life sure i had friends but none of them compare to her none of they can make me feel they way she dose whenever im with her its like every second my heart beets a thousond times and it always will because my heart beats for her it always will beat for her i just hate the thought that she may never know that.